Saturday, March 19, 2011

Your Not Beautiful {s E E }

You are not beautiful.

You are not tall
You are not thin
You are not blonde
You do not wear
   tiny skirts
    navel-revealing shirts
     or anything sizes zero, one, or even two


You are not submissive
You are not silent
You are not vulnerable
   and not weak
    not stupid

You do not drink
You do not sleep around
You never go to wild parties

In all,

You are not an emaciated, weak-willed
   subservient sex object.

That is the measure of beauty these days.
   Is it not?

       If so...

My dear,

   you are very ugly.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Free....Its F R O M {My Self saying}


It seems,
That no matter how hard I try,
I can never break out,
Of this life
And it's so hard,
To look you in the eye,
As I stand there and deny,
Telling you things that,
We both know are lies

(I...am so afraid...)

All I want is to stand,
On my own if I can,
To be free,
To be me,
To live in,
To make my own reality
Do you understand what I mean?

I just want to be free...

In dreams,
I see the face of a child,
One whose eyes are lit,
With a smile
And it's so hard,
For me to believe,
That the child I remember,
From a long ago September,
That child used to be me...!

All I want is to stand,
On my own if I can,
To be free,
To be me,
To live in,
To make my own reality
Do you understand what I mean?

I just want to be free...

I just want...
To be loved
I just want...
To feel like I'm good enough
All I want is some laughter,
To chase away my tears,
All I want is an embrace,
To chase away all my fears...!

And all I want is to stand!
On my own if I can!
To be free!
To to be me!
To live and to make,
My own reality...!
All I want is to love!
To one day just be good enough!
I always think of these things,
Do you understand...
Just what I mean?

I just want to be free...

(Free...of who I used to be...)
(Free to be me...)