Perfect Getaway ~~` {With Rhythm }

Days goes with days replace with other things around n etc
I work and do things and everything. Tired with no words to describe with my feeling
but i do that without any thinking.
But it was a great happening and ending for me. Even the day after are my most busy's time ever
Double work ( For Living ) Lol
I lives in a unic life and family
where we sees things other things. Unfortunately am the only one who loves weird stuff where ppl think the person itself are weird.  How rude. Lol
a perfect getaway was the journey i take along the way in life.
It was alot of interesting stuff along the way, but meh normal thing in life right?
unless ur too perfect...thats too scary

But what i wanting to say
My perfect Getaway that is : my stubbornness in journey, and took a risk for myself. that we know we're goin to get nag by them. But it leaves us great memory and a scar and remains as a beautiful things that u ever imaging ever.

A lullaby from a deep inside myself ;)

Am 21 already? 今年はもう一度渡された...

Omg! already 21? that was fast!
Hahaha i guess time sure flies~~
I dont see it coming and i was thinking am young day by day
But i guess not. hehehehe

It was a great day where the day we can know who do really think of us and who not.
For me i was really happy because "They" remembers it. My bestie and close sis "Ketam" and lil kid "Sotong"
and close friends. And even my school mates....ahhh i trully miss MGS this time.
I dont regret on studying that school. HAHAHAHA

Life goes on and time clicking like it should be.
I receive a great love on this lovely bday.....and even egg LOL....
thnks to my workers i suppose...they sure who their "Love" pretty good this time.
I wont give up and i wont lose now.

The real thing begin Now and am not looking back...am looking front ^_^

Ty for those wish me...i was tearing up when reading it hahaha.....Arigato....

How Long has it pass? 近づく前に私達をより持って来る年

Haha....Long time Long time...
we meet last year on July. And how idiotic we look like.
and i was a guest still. but nothing make us different anyway. We are still crazy as we are now.
We are bestie from that day.
Do everything beyond out thing. Having not enough sleep...or even dint sleep at all. LOL
Adeh nk ckp english semua kang x phm sngat kan? LOL!!!

Aku x menyesal pun kenal dgn korang walaupun hanya dalam Game saja. But hey....even so...leh Jadi kawan rapat kot. Mn lah tau panjang umo leh jmpa real kan?
Kita jmpa rasanya bukan kebetulan...dah terjumpa kann? hahaha aiseh jiwang aku lak
tapi aku nk persahabatan ini kekal sampai bila pun. Even khawin ke x....panjang umo ke x. untk aku...Ingatan aku segar dengan kenangan semua.
Teramat Segar dengan semua kenangan yg ada. hahaha
Time sedih, Time lawak, Time gelak....time semua...still fresh sih.
Aku x menyesal and langsung x. KOrang pun dah kenal aku sngat kan? Korang dua mmg tau aku mcm mana orang nya. Time aku bulan merah pun korang tau aku mcm mana. hahaha mmg best time dulu. Time cari pasal dengan orang smua...time aku first time kena hack aku ingat juga dow. Ko buat muka nangis kat aku hahaha...aku mmg syg accnt tu. heh heh....Accnt tu kenangan bnyk gak. Room aku pun kenangan banyk. terlalu bnyk smpi kadang2 aku ternangis pikir balik :P
Time aku ade vip...pakat semua nk buli aku x dpt hahahaha korang thn lama tunggu vip aku habis x dpt. And bila dah lama diam semua dah busy dgn Kerja semua. but doesnt mean ur goin to quit to be a friend right? kadang2 rasa nk on9 kan? hahah rasa mcm nk kembali mcm dulu; ;D

heh heh jiwang lak. Ku nk ucapkan je sebelum terlambat...sebelum masa aku tiba jerk! :P hehhee
Thank you sweet aka Edzahan entah nama betul ke x, And Poison aka NorlinaShahidan .

moga kita kekal. Jgn lost jgn sesekali lost :)

I love Bein good in something :D

Time goes on...and i found my passion in Photo editing 

and how i love it truly.

Bein good at something makes me High like taking drugs LMAO

But no am not taking drugs. its feels like when u do something and u know ur good and it makes u feel more on doin it.

Games and other things i have forgotten . Thank gawd i did if not i'll be addicted to it. There's will be a feeling where u wanting to go more beyond this. Am not only doin the photo edit. Am taking care my father store and somehow am getting good and seeing food quality and knowing new cooks and in ideas of making new Recipe aswell. Lol.

well thats how it works now. But i don regret of knowing all of it. It makes me really happy even am really tired. Somehow its making me on not wanting to have holiday and just work my ass off so i can buy things i want. Say am money hunger but yes i am. To buy something i wanting i able on doing something extreme myself. hahaha !!! 

Who Is He? Who and Who? { An Anonymous person?}

I know him only in Skype like OMG? hahaha~~!!!
but thats not the point am making here.
am here going to tell you about this fella.
his name Hafiz Rustam from Tawau.

A great person as i known him. and also a great singer aswell.
I know he will be a great singer since his voice match the songs he played.
Him? well he is just great in n out LOL. dont get it wrong by that.
He do sing i tell you... nevertheless he can write his own song. For me its a wonderful thing.
Being a singer are not that bad but a long road for them to achieve, and alot of things are ahead of them,
Mr Hafiz, ur a great singer and keep it up on ur singing. I'll support all the way :D... and if u got an album post to me aswell yea? xD
i would like to let the whole knows that ur a good singer asswell. Nothing can stop u. Only death can.
and dont be other ppl when the light shines on u. be who u really are. Like u and how i meet with u like ^_^ V
People that want to make u fail are the people u should be respecting because they are making u much more in confident level, and that level are high. trust me. Never forget ur Creator aswell. without NYA we would not be here nor live like this.

Again from me ... truly and sincerely from me. Be the best You can ever be Hafiz ^^.

CoLourFul Life { Bitter Became S W E E T }

Black and white
red and blue

what else the color would u want?
There's millions of the colors in this universe ~~ u can never count them since not even one can ever count it.
Each in every Life of urs, them, and all...there a colour behind those.
Each the colour we have are the meaning of our life :)
there resemble what we do.
Lol...like a myth or something as been told.
But never to believe of what u read in the papers. Not all are resemble as us..its just guesses.
we just predict on it.

thee heee....we may say thats out fav ones...but sometimes they resemble us exactly as we think lol.
Our life never been dull. it was colourful and how dull and how bitter it is
it will became sweet in time nor days nor decade...we just have to wait and sees as the colour changes :)
Nothing will became dull in eternal life... we have to colour it beautiful way and make it sweet hee heee

I've seen many colour changing now its your and our chance to make it most colourful ever...as man kind are developing more.

make the world and our life a meaningful ones...and the world into most colourful ways...and it will repay us sweets.

A Girl Stories { T.Y.P.I.C.A.L} Epic~~

Probably think a nice story?
Nope
Its a journey of becoming the girl she wants to be
...there's no happy ending...
she faces alot of shitz in her life...bitter but there's a sweet taste somewhere in those bitter.
She always sees things in other way
always think other way,
But she always thinks of her friend more than her self that include her family aswell.
She cried and she stares blanky over the sky thinking....
"Will I ever Be The person ?"
Every day she wonders on her own thinking deeply... She sees her friend are all well doing and happy and of course she is aswell
But when she giver her full efforts..they just throw her away
and she stares those rain ....thinking "Useless thinking of those "
She also lives the Virtual Life.
But as the shits happen to her
she began to rampage inside it...by seeing those who make her into those
She know she love her buddies in that,
She has a virtual family n etc...but in the end after she helped alot she been thrown away like any doll would be,
She was down...really down. Until she take a decision to break for a few days nor more...and she learn alot. and now she knows...she dont need those virtual life..she need her real life. And because for those virtual life she able to meet wonderful people in it. and she glad those shits happen that make things see whether who are friend and who are foe.

And later on...her story began to happen much more interesting and lightful.

Drey Laforme...Who is she to me? { Grell Lover Smex}

Well let see, Who is she?

I even wonder whether she's a human or Not. LOL!!!
my bad my bad....
Well she's one of important person In my life.
altough we talks like shitz and dirty or even looks like we're even fighting.

But get this! We're Not!!! its just how we shows our caring towards each other :D
I known here In virtual chat "IMVU" my first meeting with were abit awkward since they were talking about sex. hahaha..and i was dressin Noob by that time. SO i get to know here really quick. She loves to boot those noob. And she teach me some and few tips in dressin up. she even give me quiet alot of gift. Lol. wwell thats not why i love her. I always been care for her like a sis. altought sometimes there's been misunderstanding.

We been good ways we been bad ways. She's a "cute" Kind of bitch. altough i seen alot the ugly her. XD
But i love her sense of fashion and stuff and how she dress up her avi Nor the male one....gawd -drool-
But hey thats not why we became this close. i think there's magic happen before. But we dont realize that. but as always we seems like a lesbo at times. But! thats how love can be.

I love her and we love each other. She's important to me <3 <3 always will. She's became one of my important ones ^o^

I love you dude! Grell <3 <3

Your Just P E R F E C T ~~ {Be Strong}

Am I fat? Am I ugly? Am I stupid? Am I hated? Am I a failure? Am I loser? Questions. Questions we ask ourselves, questions others make us think about. The kind you ask yourself as you stare in your bathroom mirror, wondering if what they say is true; wondering if what you're thinking about yourself right now is the truth. You'll try and push your stomach in, you'll try and hide your spots, hide the wrinkles that you think you see. You will do all this and pretend; pretend to be different, pretend that this person you're imagining is who you should be; is a person better than who you are right now.

Before you know it, you're looking at those around you, wishing you were them. As you walk the halls of your school, as you walk down the nearby street. You'll convince yourself that they have everything and that you have nothing; you want their smile, their body, their hair, their face, because to you, they are better, they are something you could never be, they're beautiful and you're nothing. You'll try and be them, whoever they are, maybe you'll see them in a movie, maybe a magazine, across the road. You don't know them, you don't know what they are going through, but you convince yourself that they have everything and you have nothing.

You'll change your body, change your smile, change your clothes, change your friends, knowing that you will soon be who you're supposed to be, knowing and believing, that this is the right thing to do; and one day, you'll proudly walk to that same bathroom mirror and look back at what you've become, who you are sure you're meant to be. A stranger stares back at you; the child that dreamt of reaching the stars has faded, the one who laughed with friends until your lungs ached just for the hell of it; they've gone. The person who held their loved ones close when things got tough, knowing they were not alone has all but vanished; and the shine in the eyes of someone who had so much to believe in and so much to give is nowhere to be found.

The desire to change is great and sometimes, it's almost impossible to resist. You'll change your style, try and change how you feel, to please others and sometimes, we can't help ourselves. But with everything, there is always a line that you must draw. Sometimes, the scariest thing in the world, is to love yourself; to believe enough in who you are to stand tall and proud and tell the world, 'hey, this is who I am, warts and all'. You fear rejection, you fear being mocked, you fear being alone and you are so sure that someone else, someone other than you could handle it better; when you know what the truth is?

Everyone hurts. Everyone wishes to be something else once in a while, everyone loses their way and everyone has the courage and the strength to find themselves again. So sing until your throat aches, dance until your legs start to give way and live your life as nothing but who you always were. Pain, suffering, hurt, they always come and that will never change, but if you can believe in who you are, if you can trust yourself to never stray from your dreams, then there will always be a light at the seemingly endless tunnel.

So if you ever feel lost or lose faith in yourself, remember these words.


If you are true.

If you are strong.

If you always believe.


You are beautiful.

A mother Day {Special For My mum} and its goes for all the mother out there.

Happy Mother day for my mother

Its a special day and its does
she's really fierce...and scary
and sometimes can be funny at times and we dont know what their thinking.
But thats hows they show their love to us. no matter how naughty we are and how grumpy we are.

We complains and do w/e we do to them
they stand for us still just for us.
they can be our best friend.

But nothing-less they are our mother that born us. care us and been with us always.
They know us more than our own bestie
they know what we hate
and they know what we love.

Its our mother dammit. Lol.
Just say we love them no matter what ^o^V

I love my mother and thats is. HAPPY MOTHER DAY FROM UR OWN DAUGHTER!!!! <3 <3

and to all the mothers in the world.
 

As human beings.: A tale of my friend named Aniss (for her bday) （＾ｖ...

As human beings.: A tale of my friend named Aniss (for her bday) （＾ｖ...: "Ola Bday Girl! we not getting young but we getting fun now. let me sing this for ya Happy birthday To You Happy birthday To You Happy bi..."

A tale of my friend named Aniss (for her bday) （＾ｖ＾）V

Ola Bday Girl!

we not getting young but we getting fun now. let me sing this for ya

Happy birthday To You

Happy birthday To You

Happy birthday....

To You 

Sweet 21...nvm still young Duh!

We have become close since high school. Too many things happen. But we still close that means we do meant to be girlfriends right? hahaha...alot of things wanting to say n etc but hey we care each other...excepts that your cold. And evil. hahaha...

About her that i love most that she's capable in handling things on her own. Certain things only she asks a help. But she more like "independent" Kind of way. She a mentor in our group...that knows bout fashion n etc which we can asks her for a help in dressin urself. another that i like is when meeting her always we speak English...its important. She hates certain things but her reaction make me laugh always. she can be good listener and she can evil. either way people loves her. Those haters? blah..they are jealous thats all....mind that.

But she more to direct way of saying things. she do cover some but she's a ice queen. Who can blame that right? 

If u cant take her words..ur not worth a shot on her. If u can i must say ur special aswell. 

So aniss may we stay like this always yea? Girlfriend Alwys hun

The Girl Code

Though we never speak them out loud, there are important rules of friendship that safeguard your relationship now and forever. To make sure you always adhere to the girl code, Never do any of the following :

1. Steal Your Bestie's Guy

Chances are in six month he'll be off the scene and the thing you will really heartbroken is about when you lose Your BFF. 

2. Neglect Your BFF for New Boyfriend

It's Fine that you and your guy have time along but make sure you also set aside regular time to be with your bestie so she feels needed and importand.

3. Be Brutally Honest

Sure she asked you if she's gained weight or new haircut is a disaster or if you think she talks too much. She's fishing for reassurance so give it in a bucket loads - But stick to a little white lies rather than the truth.

 4. Bad Mouth Your Bestie (This for those who dont Know their Own bestie)

It doesn't matter what she did and how angry you are - write it down a journal, but whatever you do,Dont tell another friend as in a new stranger friend of yours. Otherwise word may get around that you've bitching about her and it could be curtains for friendship.

5. Compete

Learn to love the qualities that makes her special and celebrate them rather than trying to outdo them - by setting this tone she will trust you and love the best in you aswell.

So tell me if u can do all this, You may keep ur BFF with u all the time. They a precious. Keep Them with u always, who knows when we will be needing them ^_^ V

Road to Extinction... {The world Sees all}

An undeclared war
To decide who arrived first
A freedom so loudly spoken
By those who’ve never felt it

Soldiers of today
Fighting for a tomorrow
Most will never get to see
The sunrise once again

All much too young
To know what’s right or wrong
Old enough to march and aim
To fight to their very last breath

There’s no real need to teach them
The streets will take care of that
Mommy never told you who to be
Never held you tight enough

A hundred men buy the world
With the suffering of a billion others
Their wallets full of blood
And tears that are not their own

How far are we willing to go
Before we can’t find our way back
Soon enough we will destroy
All we’ve imagined and created

I MISS {All Of IT}

I miss it all.

I miss the way you were so happy.
I miss the way you always laughed.
I miss the way you held your head up high;
                                                               the way you were always glad.

I miss the times we still had fun.
I miss the times I didn't run.
But now those times are past
                                                               you're gone.
I miss it all.

I'll miss you;
                                                               everyone.

Your Not Beautiful {s E E }

You are not beautiful.

You are not tall
You are not thin
You are not blonde
You do not wear
   tiny skirts
    navel-revealing shirts
     or anything sizes zero, one, or even two


You are not submissive
You are not silent
You are not vulnerable
   and not weak
    not stupid

You do not drink
You do not sleep around
You never go to wild parties

In all,

You are not an emaciated, weak-willed
   subservient sex object.

That is the measure of beauty these days.
   Is it not?

       If so...

My dear,

   you are very ugly.

Free....Its F R O M {My Self saying}

It seems,
That no matter how hard I try,
I can never break out,
Of this life
And it's so hard,
To look you in the eye,
As I stand there and deny,
Telling you things that,
We both know are lies

(I...am so afraid...)

All I want is to stand,
On my own if I can,
To be free,
To be me,
To live in,
To make my own reality
Do you understand what I mean?

I just want to be free...

In dreams,
I see the face of a child,
One whose eyes are lit,
With a smile
And it's so hard,
For me to believe,
That the child I remember,
From a long ago September,
That child used to be me...!

All I want is to stand,
On my own if I can,
To be free,
To be me,
To live in,
To make my own reality
Do you understand what I mean?

I just want to be free...

I just want...
To be loved
I just want...
To feel like I'm good enough
All I want is some laughter,
To chase away my tears,
All I want is an embrace,
To chase away all my fears...!

And all I want is to stand!
On my own if I can!
To be free!
To to be me!
To live and to make,
My own reality...!
All I want is to love!
To one day just be good enough!
I always think of these things,
Do you understand...
Just what I mean?

I just want to be free...

(Free...of who I used to be...)
(Free to be me...)

Li Fe Is Music {Re Install...}

We live our lives
By following various beats
Each beat gives off vibration
Vibration creates a sound

Each of us
Makes a different sound
But we can mix it up
No matter how crazy
The beat comes out
For it creates music

Life is music
Everything makes sounds
Each has a different beat
A wonderous melody
Creating songs of joy

Each of us
Is a music note
We sing it
We dance it
We beat it
We play it

Life is a symphony
A musical in which we live
For the sounds of life
Are all around us

In nature
As the wind blows
Animals speak
River stream flows
Birds chirp happily

In cities and towns
As the sounds fill the air
Chattering going about
It creates a collab of sounds

Life is like music
It creates beauty
It can create noise
But it plays a great role
For all of mankind

Music touches the soul
Heals the heart
It gives us meaning
To remember the good things
That we hold so dear in life

To help us remember
What is important to us
Music gives us meaning
It gives life to us

Music assures us
That things will be alright
No matter if the beats
Cancel each other out
Crash and fall
Creating chaos and ear-hurting noise

Music is Life
Life is Music
Were part of music
As we are part of life

Music is the air we breath
Our muse that helps us
To dig into our inner creativity
It also assures us
That there will always be a tomorrow

Music helps us
To let go of worries and cares
That life is meaningful
A precious gift
Just like music is

Life is Music
We each have a unique melody
Alone it is quite a lovely song
But together as one
It creates a beautiful symphony

R u N away

Run Away

Run away, so far away.
Run away cause I can't stay.
Run away, away from the pain.
Run away, escape these chains.

Take me away to a better place.
Take me away, don't make me stay.
Take me away, Please no pain.
Take me away, cut these chains.

Show me the light of the day.
Show me love to make me stay.
Show me how to ease my pain.
Show me now to forget everything.

Bring me closer to you.
Bring me love that will never end.
Bring me happiness, no more tears.
Bring me to freedom, to escape such fear.

Run away, so far away.
Run away, I don't wanna stay.
Run away, I can't take this pain.
Run away, but I'm still chained!

Forgivness

I
I forgive
I forgive too much
I forgive you too much

I
I shouldn't forgive
I shouldn't forgive you
I shouldn't forgive you so much

You
You just say
You just say lies
You just say lies in my ears

Why?
Why do I forgive you?
Why do I forgive you all the time?
Why should I forgive you?

YOU ..... {Are You}

Hello.
Yes, you.
Hello.

Who am I?
That doesn't matter.
I'm just a person.

You don't know me.
You don't know my hair color
Or my eye color.

You don't know my skin color
Or my ethnicity.
You don't know anything about me.

I could have pink hair
And yellow eyes,
But I would still be me.

I might be dark skinned,
Or I could be light skinned,
Or I could be in between.

I could be younger than you
And I could be older.
But that doesn't matter.

Maybe I'm short,
And maybe I'm tall,
Or maybe I'm neither.

I could be American,
Or Asian,
Or maybe Indonesian.

I guess what I'm getting at
Is that it doesn't matter
What a person looks like.

It shouldn't matter their race
Or weight,
Or age.

If I were old
and overweight
I would still be me.

It doesn't matter whether
I'm a boy
Or a girl.

It doesn't matter if I'm straight
Or gay
Or bi.

If you dislike me
For my personality,
That's one thing.

But to hate someone
for their appearance
Isn't right.

So I'm writing this
for all of you outcasts
because someone needs to stand up for you.

Whether you're tall or short,
Small or large,
Young or old.

Dark or light,
Blue or brown-eyed,
Blonde or black-haired.

You are unique,
So don't let anyone else
Tell you otherwise.

Because what are we, really,
If we don't have
Our differences?

I'm different from you
you're different from me,
We're different from each other.

So the next time someone calls you weird or strange,
Remember this poem,
And know that it's not bad to be you.

Because no matter what you may think,
There are people that love you
For who you are, not what you look like.

Because you're amazing,
You're unique,
You are you.

{ ..CAGED..}

My friends,
My beloved friends.

You are all in cages,
of steel and iron.

You all look so miserable,
Wanting to break out.

Shaking the bars that,
Separate you from the outside world.

Clawing at the air,
Outside of that hell.

Wishing you could be free,
And fly high above the earth.

Floating among the blue clouds,
Not a care in the world.

But those are just dreams,
In that damp cold place.

I hope to free you someday,
Breaking those bars.

Watching as they fall to the ground,
Clattering noisily on the floor.

Watching you,
As you leap and jump.

Watching you,
As you smile and laugh.

Watching you,
As you flutter and soar.

But those are just dreams,
In that damp cold place.

For I too,
Have cages of my own.

Who will help me break out?
Who will smile at me?

Who will lead me by the hand,
To the warm and loving place?

Who will teach me,
To love again?
To live again?
To smile again?

So for now,
Nothing can be changed.

I see you there,
All alone.

Chained to the place,
That you call home.

I always wonder,
How you live.

Through all that pain,
With nothing to give.

But suffering and hurt,
And nothing more.

They ignore you,
Like they always do.

Facing away,
Pretending you don’t exist.

But you’re still there,
Because you resist.

You pull on the chain,
They pull back.

You find the key,
They break the lock.

You yell and scream,
They remain silent.

Ignoring your rants,
Walking away.

Never turning back,
Never facing you.

Maybe they are,
The ones that are afraid.

Maybe they too,
Have their own fears.

Just like you,
Just like me.

Why Guys Cry?

Why Guys Cry
1. Girls screw them over...
2. They just got hit in the balls...
3. They're about to die...
4. Their heart is broken..
5. Because they are true men.

GIRLS: If you see a guy crying, hug him close and hold him up as he gets over the pain of getting kicked in the nuts. Tell him he's not going to die, and if he's crying over a girl... hug him and kiss him and let him know you won't screw him over and break his heart like the last girl did. Guys just want to know that our girls will be there for us to support us when we need them and help us get our mind off the pain of heartbreak, getting kicked in the balls, and knowing we're gonna die.



Girls cry because...
1. They're sad...
2. They're scared...
3. They're nervous...
4. They're frustrated...
5. They're missing someone...
6. They're alone...
7. They're PMSing...
8. They're pregnant..
9. Their heart is broken...
10. They're in love...
11. Their souls have been torn...
12. THEY MET A BOY THEY CANT HAVE...
13. They fell in love with a boy...
14. They hurt so bad inside...
15. They're mad...
16. Something bad happend...
17. JUST BECAUSE THEY FEEL LIKE CRYING
18. Because they got hit in the chest.
19. They have to do something that will hurt someone they love
20. Boys screwww them over

******BOYS: If any girl you know is crying and you see them, don't just stand there and say you're sorry. Hold them and tell them everything will be okay, even if you have no idea what is wrong with them. Girls just want to be held and know that someone cares about them.

Life is?

Life is like a bully,
Never satisfied until you're crying
Never taking the time to help you up
Simply kicking you when you're down
Throwing everything it can at you
Beating you up
Pelting you with insults
It knows your every weakness
It's the bully that follows you from day one

Life is like a hurricane,
You can never tell if you should run
Never tell if you'll survive
You never know if you'll have anything
Or if everything will leave you
Never know when you're left standing in the cold
Homeless,
Friendless,
Hopeless
Adandoned

Life is like a rainy day,
Beautiful sometimes,
Horrible others
Washing over the land,
Digging up all the dirt you don't want it to
Lashing down on you as you walk
Weighing you down as you trudge along
Refreshing you when you're dying
Yet driving you crazy when you want the sun
An endless rain cloud

Life is an adventure
Taking,
Giving
Leaving,
Coming
Stealing,
Receiving
You never know where it'll take you,
What it will take from you,
Where it will lead you,
Where is will leave you

Life is one big mystery

Not Much Time.

I'm running out of time,
losing my breath.
My vision is blurry,
and my eyes are heavy.

Not much time left,
before I go down.

My bones become brittle,
my knees are weak.
My hands quiver,
as my palms sweat.

Not much time left,
before I lose myself.

I can't see much,
I'm so light headed.
Spinning around,
Until I collapse.

Not much time left,
before I change.

Pale skin,
and tired eyes.
Reaching out for someone,
there is nothing to grab.

Not much time left,
before I feel utterly alone.

Sitting in a corner,
head in my hands.
Tears soak my face,
darkness is all around.

Not much time left,
before I feel nothing.

Calling out to you,
no response to receive.
I take another breath,
just before my last.

Not much time left,
before I'm gone.

{ B E S T ... F R I E N D ... }

I'm afraid to look at that photoalbum to see your smiling face looking back at me..
I don't want to lose the happiness that is already slowly fading away.
The times you and I spent together all seem so far away and yet it only seems like yesterday that we were laughing together.

If I go back there to that place I'm sure that I will cry.
Though that place is comforting, I know that I can't rely on it forever and someday I'll have to stand on my own two feet.

I want to be able to smile and say I'm doing great. But even so, saying something that is only partially true breaks my heart. Although I'm happy and doing fine I still miss you to death.

I think about you all the time and miss the days we spent together.

The only one who could make the pain go away completely and make me feel happy all the time. The only one I considered my best friend. The only one that could truly never be replaced.

The one who understood the hard times and was happy for me during the good times. The one who was my hero when it seemed no one else could ease the pain.

My first friend of freshman year and my true best friend to this day.
The one who calls me almost every day to check up on me and see how I'm doing.
The one who I look up to and aspire to be like
The one I can only wish to be as great and as strong as.

The one that always has my back no matter what anyone else says.

The one that taught me how to grow up but also taught me how to truly live.

The irreplacable handprint on my heart that I'll always carry with me.

The one friend I'll truly never forget.

The one friend I love with all my heart.

The friend I'd easily give my life for.

My best friend.

The Same Inside

We all Human, but different religion, culture, colours and ways. But Nowdays we dint see the fact that we all actually share the same thing, we are all HUMANS with normal blood and hearts. But as the time goes on and the world are changing year by year, everyone of us forget what we are. We had wars and blaming things that we don't know what really happen.

We are living in the same world called "Earth"...duh! we are living in a different world or something else. different country yes but the are staying at the world called earth right? So? basicly we are all sharing the same. But why nowdays there's racist and other things? cant u people see what going on?cant u people see what really happen instead of pointing finger? Its Bullshits actually by doing that.

We all want some peace for ourself, Now dont deny it but i know you do want it yourself. Now instead of seeing things happen and kept quiet...why dont we stop it ourself then?

And dont act so high level..because actually...we are not..just merely bj our job we look all high level..but actually we are all normal level..nothing much then that. and Btw..we are not God..so try not to act like one.

The world should be free from anymore bloodwar.